Layers of Me
As I go through this rather torturous process of deprogramming me, or just trying to understand why I do the things I do, I find several layers of crud, involving blocks to which I do not presently have the key. These mind blocks involve a conscious lack of the ability to focus, or just plain lack of communication between the left and right hemispheres of my brain. It is also my lack of partial, let alone full awareness of my cellular memories.
I am beginning to understand the 13x13 matrix construction in my brain’s construction. I think it has to do with the nature of my problem of lack of communication. It seems to me that the 13 alien cultures had very different things in mind when they each created one of the matrices. I think the balance of power was tipped badly in the reptilians favor when they were allowed to integrate the 13x13 matrix with the reptilian brain stem. This is where my basic problem lies. By letting a true foe, such as the Draco have integrating capability; the chances for us to remain slaves of the reptilians for a very long time were very much increased. Why would any sane Lyraen-based culture agree to such a plan in the first place? Probably they didn’t much choice in the matter. As important as the earth appears to be in this fight to the finish between the Lyraen and Draco cultures, one would think they would have cared more about the obvious outcome.
I could be missing the point here entirely. What if the whole point to this madness is to integrate the best qualities of all 13 cultures into us? Then it makes no sense to have them do what they did to us. Each culture put in its most dominant, aggressive feature, hoping that the outcome would be tipped in their favor. What a mess to get through? This means I have to integrate at least 13 different “fighting” layers of me into a whole person, and truthfully a lot more. Within just one of the 13 matrices, there is no consistency either, at least from my standpoint.
Let us just take the Draco and their most supreme accomplishment so far on earth, the Hybrids, or the blue bloods. These people are almost so distracted by their own infighting that they lose track of their own master plan. And the hybrids are the most heavily specifically programmed people on the earth today.
Has anyone ever thought that programming may not be the way to go? Possibly integration is a better road to take. It does not seem that the Draco are too good at introspection. Maybe introspection is beyond a hive-mind to do and it is more of an individual quality.
To get specific, take Diana and Charles. Now, here’s a pair to draw 3 to, so let’s draw a third in Camilla, into the fray.
There was a special on PBS about Charles and his younger days recently. What a messed up childhood! His parents leave him with the nanny for 6-9 months at the age of 2 or 3 to do a tour of the commonwealth. Most children, that age, have a hard time remembering what they did yesterday, let alone, 6-9 months back. When his parents got back, they fired the nanny for spoiling Charles, supposedly. Really, it may have been due to the fact that the nanny was the only one who Charles could relate to at all. That isolation created a person that just wanted to be left alone which was a bad choice for a prince. His father was a military sort, being Draco programmed, himself, and promptly sent him off to military schools, which Charles apparently hated with gusto. It seems that anytime he took a real interest in something to express himself as an individual, he was squashed like a bug and reprogrammed in the draconian military-beehive-collective-minded way of doing things. The moment he falls in love with Camilla, they are parted. This is possibly due to breeding purposes. As the Pindar and other(s) who bore Diana’s children, possibly didn’t take to going to bed with Camilla. So here, Charles is reprogrammed again. These programmers, whoever they are, are very inept, to say the least. The programming did not take. He still loves Camilla, the handler. With makeup, she looks human enough, but without makeup, she is pure reptilian, all the way. She is also heavily programmed to be Charles’ handler, just in case there’s a break in Charles programming. The Draco, it seems, do not put all their eggs in one basket. Into the fray, comes Diana, with all her programming. She is supposedly untouched by everyone, except the programmers. Imagine her delight, when before her marriage to Charles, she found out about Camilla and went to Charles about it, who said to her that she had to expect that he would have mistresses, as all the other princes and kings had them, why not him too. Family pressure and heavy programming was the only way she ever married Charles. Imagine her delight to become pregnant all of a sudden, and not by Charles. So what did she do, but turn the tables on the Windsors with her own game of becoming more popular than they ever were. I’ll bet Elizabeth loved that turn of events.
Diana is now a martyr of the first degree and the new world order has their new Mary for the new Jesus to cavort with. What a tangled web the Draco can weave! Above all else individuality will not be tolerated, or else the perpetrator will be eliminated by a coalition of combatants that all hate one another, but they hate individuals worse.
And this is the Draco’s pride and joy of genetic programming over millennia of effort?
I really feel sorry for the Blue blood hybrids in a way, for they are too heavily programmed to enjoy the joys of individuality that come with being human. If god-mind hadn’t want to explore the different versions of itself, why else would 3-D have been created in the first place.
I think it is not really bad programming, but rather the other 12x12 matrices that are coming into play, each with their own dominant characteristics and alters. How could any human on the earth have any consistency about them?
This is both the Draco’s main problem and mine too.
From their standpoint, how do they consistently program out the Lyraen tendency to want to be in 3-D for individual freedom of will, which caused the supposed fall from grace in the first place? I, for one, do not wish them luck, as I have my own problems.
From my standpoint, how do I integrate all the radically different parts and disconnected pieces of my mind pattern-personality into a whole individual, and not stay a wounded soul. Better yet, how do I integrate the best Draco features of me with the rest of this alien mess I was given to work with, in just one part of a particularly short lifetime. That is, after I start to wake up to the fact of this mess inside me. It’s a daunting task, to say the least.
I know only a few things for sure.
Everyone has their own agenda to work on and we should get started, post haste.
I need help.
I use my oversoul, or the thought of one to help me sort out what is right for me. I do a lot of supposing and fumbling around, and it waits for me to get smart about me.
The moment I don’t release every night, and I’m talking about EVERY NIGHT, I can see the characters at work on the layers of me while I sleep. This is always if I’m stuck on something I did or saw earlier in the day in my dreams. When I’m stuck, they are busy. I don’t know what they are doing, but I know they are there. I see glimpses of them throughout the night. It seems that parts of me are always talking to other parts of me and I do not know their language.
Just last night, I thought I cleared out the day pretty well, and so I did, but a chance thought about Preston Nichols reality generator from one of his UFO experiences came in and wouldn’t go away. I kept on thinking and dreaming about a world with this power in it. It would be wonderful if it were because then we could clean up the world from the MAD mess of the cold war. If Only, ha ha, sure I know it’s a pure fantasy, but that is the stuff of dreams. Anyhow, while I couldn’t shake this thought, I peered down into the layer below and sure enough there were the cartoon characters talking away. My point here is that I have to fully integrate my thoughts before I go to bed for the night. I was reading Preston’s book 2 days ago. Nice technology and I am a tech geek. So much for not thinking about it and forming impossible theories about how the world could run better.
I have spoken about being stuck before, in the form of flow and excess baggage. The more excess baggage you have, the deeper you’re stuck. When you are stuck, you are not truly in the universal flow of energy and information that is all around us. You are in it and a part of it as we all are, but you are ignoring your part in this play. Your part in this play is to make up your own reality, not hang on to someone else’s. When you are stuck, you are usually stuck in someone else’s version of reality, say, your parents, teachers, siblings, friends, clergy, peers, or handlers & programmers versions of reality. I am going to be 57 years old and with every year that flies by, I say that I just woke up to another version of me to integrate. About 2 weeks ago, I woke up a little more, realizing that I had not fully integrated my work personality into my personal life and I have been retired now for going on 6 years. That is 6 years of more intensely looking at myself than I was allowed to before and only now I am recognizing that I am not able to do things the way I got them done when I was at work. How dense can I be? The earth is a magnificent distraction with all it’s financial, sexual, relationship, and other wonderful traps to get hung up in. I have to get past that and even though I can see that I have to, I still lapse into my lackadaisical mode of just going about my life from day to day blissfully enjoying the landscape of it all.
Several layers of me are stuck in this so-called happiness mode where the beauty of the earth around me is such a pleasant experience to take in that I wind up in la la land Other layers of me are stuck in the moneymaking, or lack thereof, mode. Other layers of me are stuck in the sexual fantasy mode that is very difficult to get out of. Several layers of me are frustrated with the lack of progress on any one of the projects that I do in life. AND only one layer of me, it seems, is concerned with figuring out what is going on inside me and getting it straight. This is layer or alter I have to make primary in my life, if I am to have any lasting peace in my life. All the other layers are distractions and I know it, but they are beautiful distractions.
This is both the Draco problem and mine.
In their case, they would like to program the distractions out of other slaves, and the Hybrids, let alone me and get on with conquering the universe.
In my case, I just want to integrate the layers of me into a complete being so that I can get on with my purpose for being in 3-D and not be so distracted all the time. When I am on purpose I am in the universal flow, knowingly.
This is why I write all the time and why I am so consumed with a passion for knowledge of myself so that I can act accordingly and not the way I have been in the past. I have seen myself do things and accomplish things that no one else has or ever would. I would like to make these fleeting moments a larger part of my life. When I write, things come clear. I have a lot more writing to do.
I am beginning to understand the 13x13 matrix construction in my brain’s construction. I think it has to do with the nature of my problem of lack of communication. It seems to me that the 13 alien cultures had very different things in mind when they each created one of the matrices. I think the balance of power was tipped badly in the reptilians favor when they were allowed to integrate the 13x13 matrix with the reptilian brain stem. This is where my basic problem lies. By letting a true foe, such as the Draco have integrating capability; the chances for us to remain slaves of the reptilians for a very long time were very much increased. Why would any sane Lyraen-based culture agree to such a plan in the first place? Probably they didn’t much choice in the matter. As important as the earth appears to be in this fight to the finish between the Lyraen and Draco cultures, one would think they would have cared more about the obvious outcome.
I could be missing the point here entirely. What if the whole point to this madness is to integrate the best qualities of all 13 cultures into us? Then it makes no sense to have them do what they did to us. Each culture put in its most dominant, aggressive feature, hoping that the outcome would be tipped in their favor. What a mess to get through? This means I have to integrate at least 13 different “fighting” layers of me into a whole person, and truthfully a lot more. Within just one of the 13 matrices, there is no consistency either, at least from my standpoint.
Let us just take the Draco and their most supreme accomplishment so far on earth, the Hybrids, or the blue bloods. These people are almost so distracted by their own infighting that they lose track of their own master plan. And the hybrids are the most heavily specifically programmed people on the earth today.
Has anyone ever thought that programming may not be the way to go? Possibly integration is a better road to take. It does not seem that the Draco are too good at introspection. Maybe introspection is beyond a hive-mind to do and it is more of an individual quality.
To get specific, take Diana and Charles. Now, here’s a pair to draw 3 to, so let’s draw a third in Camilla, into the fray.
There was a special on PBS about Charles and his younger days recently. What a messed up childhood! His parents leave him with the nanny for 6-9 months at the age of 2 or 3 to do a tour of the commonwealth. Most children, that age, have a hard time remembering what they did yesterday, let alone, 6-9 months back. When his parents got back, they fired the nanny for spoiling Charles, supposedly. Really, it may have been due to the fact that the nanny was the only one who Charles could relate to at all. That isolation created a person that just wanted to be left alone which was a bad choice for a prince. His father was a military sort, being Draco programmed, himself, and promptly sent him off to military schools, which Charles apparently hated with gusto. It seems that anytime he took a real interest in something to express himself as an individual, he was squashed like a bug and reprogrammed in the draconian military-beehive-collective-minded way of doing things. The moment he falls in love with Camilla, they are parted. This is possibly due to breeding purposes. As the Pindar and other(s) who bore Diana’s children, possibly didn’t take to going to bed with Camilla. So here, Charles is reprogrammed again. These programmers, whoever they are, are very inept, to say the least. The programming did not take. He still loves Camilla, the handler. With makeup, she looks human enough, but without makeup, she is pure reptilian, all the way. She is also heavily programmed to be Charles’ handler, just in case there’s a break in Charles programming. The Draco, it seems, do not put all their eggs in one basket. Into the fray, comes Diana, with all her programming. She is supposedly untouched by everyone, except the programmers. Imagine her delight, when before her marriage to Charles, she found out about Camilla and went to Charles about it, who said to her that she had to expect that he would have mistresses, as all the other princes and kings had them, why not him too. Family pressure and heavy programming was the only way she ever married Charles. Imagine her delight to become pregnant all of a sudden, and not by Charles. So what did she do, but turn the tables on the Windsors with her own game of becoming more popular than they ever were. I’ll bet Elizabeth loved that turn of events.
Diana is now a martyr of the first degree and the new world order has their new Mary for the new Jesus to cavort with. What a tangled web the Draco can weave! Above all else individuality will not be tolerated, or else the perpetrator will be eliminated by a coalition of combatants that all hate one another, but they hate individuals worse.
And this is the Draco’s pride and joy of genetic programming over millennia of effort?
I really feel sorry for the Blue blood hybrids in a way, for they are too heavily programmed to enjoy the joys of individuality that come with being human. If god-mind hadn’t want to explore the different versions of itself, why else would 3-D have been created in the first place.
I think it is not really bad programming, but rather the other 12x12 matrices that are coming into play, each with their own dominant characteristics and alters. How could any human on the earth have any consistency about them?
This is both the Draco’s main problem and mine too.
From their standpoint, how do they consistently program out the Lyraen tendency to want to be in 3-D for individual freedom of will, which caused the supposed fall from grace in the first place? I, for one, do not wish them luck, as I have my own problems.
From my standpoint, how do I integrate all the radically different parts and disconnected pieces of my mind pattern-personality into a whole individual, and not stay a wounded soul. Better yet, how do I integrate the best Draco features of me with the rest of this alien mess I was given to work with, in just one part of a particularly short lifetime. That is, after I start to wake up to the fact of this mess inside me. It’s a daunting task, to say the least.
I know only a few things for sure.
Everyone has their own agenda to work on and we should get started, post haste.
I need help.
I use my oversoul, or the thought of one to help me sort out what is right for me. I do a lot of supposing and fumbling around, and it waits for me to get smart about me.
The moment I don’t release every night, and I’m talking about EVERY NIGHT, I can see the characters at work on the layers of me while I sleep. This is always if I’m stuck on something I did or saw earlier in the day in my dreams. When I’m stuck, they are busy. I don’t know what they are doing, but I know they are there. I see glimpses of them throughout the night. It seems that parts of me are always talking to other parts of me and I do not know their language.
Just last night, I thought I cleared out the day pretty well, and so I did, but a chance thought about Preston Nichols reality generator from one of his UFO experiences came in and wouldn’t go away. I kept on thinking and dreaming about a world with this power in it. It would be wonderful if it were because then we could clean up the world from the MAD mess of the cold war. If Only, ha ha, sure I know it’s a pure fantasy, but that is the stuff of dreams. Anyhow, while I couldn’t shake this thought, I peered down into the layer below and sure enough there were the cartoon characters talking away. My point here is that I have to fully integrate my thoughts before I go to bed for the night. I was reading Preston’s book 2 days ago. Nice technology and I am a tech geek. So much for not thinking about it and forming impossible theories about how the world could run better.
I have spoken about being stuck before, in the form of flow and excess baggage. The more excess baggage you have, the deeper you’re stuck. When you are stuck, you are not truly in the universal flow of energy and information that is all around us. You are in it and a part of it as we all are, but you are ignoring your part in this play. Your part in this play is to make up your own reality, not hang on to someone else’s. When you are stuck, you are usually stuck in someone else’s version of reality, say, your parents, teachers, siblings, friends, clergy, peers, or handlers & programmers versions of reality. I am going to be 57 years old and with every year that flies by, I say that I just woke up to another version of me to integrate. About 2 weeks ago, I woke up a little more, realizing that I had not fully integrated my work personality into my personal life and I have been retired now for going on 6 years. That is 6 years of more intensely looking at myself than I was allowed to before and only now I am recognizing that I am not able to do things the way I got them done when I was at work. How dense can I be? The earth is a magnificent distraction with all it’s financial, sexual, relationship, and other wonderful traps to get hung up in. I have to get past that and even though I can see that I have to, I still lapse into my lackadaisical mode of just going about my life from day to day blissfully enjoying the landscape of it all.
Several layers of me are stuck in this so-called happiness mode where the beauty of the earth around me is such a pleasant experience to take in that I wind up in la la land Other layers of me are stuck in the moneymaking, or lack thereof, mode. Other layers of me are stuck in the sexual fantasy mode that is very difficult to get out of. Several layers of me are frustrated with the lack of progress on any one of the projects that I do in life. AND only one layer of me, it seems, is concerned with figuring out what is going on inside me and getting it straight. This is layer or alter I have to make primary in my life, if I am to have any lasting peace in my life. All the other layers are distractions and I know it, but they are beautiful distractions.
This is both the Draco problem and mine.
In their case, they would like to program the distractions out of other slaves, and the Hybrids, let alone me and get on with conquering the universe.
In my case, I just want to integrate the layers of me into a complete being so that I can get on with my purpose for being in 3-D and not be so distracted all the time. When I am on purpose I am in the universal flow, knowingly.
This is why I write all the time and why I am so consumed with a passion for knowledge of myself so that I can act accordingly and not the way I have been in the past. I have seen myself do things and accomplish things that no one else has or ever would. I would like to make these fleeting moments a larger part of my life. When I write, things come clear. I have a lot more writing to do.
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