My Progams

I like to observe things as they happen and stand back and see how it could have been different, for better or worse. I know that better and worse are judgements that are peculiar to you and you alone. Before I was married, I used to daydream a lot, constantly not being in touch with the world around me. I spent most of my life not being here, but rather somewhere else. I often would say I preferred to be in space without ever consciously knowing how boring it all must be. I know I was never bored until I got into the Navy. I hate doing a task just for the sake of doing that task. For me, one task has got to lead to another. Things have to make sense. For every riddle there is an answer. In fact, every riddle you propose, you can answer.
Six months ago, my wife went to Colombia and I was left alone in my home. This does not happen very often. I am always very productive when I’m left to myself. I do a lot of stuff that I wouldn’t be able to do with my wife around. One day I created a mural on our rec. rm wall that resembles an infinity symbol with a person’s lips over it. I know I probably have been programmed to do such stuff, but to me it just seemed to be a nice expression of who I was at that point in time. I didn’t even think of infinity until my wife came home and said that an infinity symbol. The mural is me , but it is also missing some life, as I am. Do I directly infer that I would like to kiss infinty without really consciously knowing or caring about life at all? I am at my best when I am observing how to make things different.
Another one of my alters loves playing with stone. I am very good at it. Our family has been in stone for a long , long time. It is one of my generational progams.
Yet another one of my alters loves to delve into the details and make things go right according to me. I actually see the details of a project as they come together to make up the larger picture. I have a unique ability on this earth to make things happen that no one else would even want to do. This is a real problem for almost all people on the earth. This particular trait or set of programs makes it very difficult for me to interact with the rest of the world. I have a unique ability for dedutive and inductive reasoning with almost no data. I can come up with a correct answer. There are a lot of supposedly correct answers out there as God-mind is constantly playing games with itself though us.
I am not a worrier in the present tense, that is, I have already solved, to my satisfaction, all the problems I think are worth solving. Nothing else matters to me, so why should I worry about it. I can be quite callous at times. I do not feel things in the same tense as other people in the world.