The Many Sides of Me

I am living several lives at once.
One is the nitty gritty pay the bills existence that is called crank and grind existence.
One is a sexual fantasy where I can have any amount of sexual fun I want.
One is loving Aurita unconditionally with all that entails.
One is cutting stone.
One is being an accountant.
One is being an engineer.
One is absolute fun playing with my mind and soul, creating worlds and predicting life as it should be.
While I enjoy them all, I really love the last one where I can play continually without having to risk anything.
All the time I wonder if I should be doing more than I am doing now.