Triggering
We are being triggered constantly by movies and our television. How many times does a commercial trigger a hunger response? A lot. How many times does a movie trigger us sexually? A lot. How many times does a movie trigger the anger in us? A lot more than you think. I am fairly even tempered as people go and I have been triggered often. The store was having a 2 for 1 rental day and so I went ahead and rented Murder by the Numbers and Panic Room. I am triggered by elf all the time and a couple of nights before I rented the movies I dreamed I was driving. Then along comes Panic Room, which was a great thriller about a really lousy subject. This movie actually made you feel sorry for the criminals. They were greedy souls who eventually shot or killed all their partners and then couldn’t get over the fence with loot. For no other reason than they had a gun to use, did they start killing one another. This movie makes a good case for taking all the guns away. Anyway, the night after this movie , I looked at a true horror movie of the teen genre. Murder by the Numbers is a movie about 2 bored teenagers killing someone just to see if they could get away with it. Of course they get caught, which is probably what they wanted all along, to be noticed for the (sick) geniuses they were but in the meantime, this movie shows a really sick side of humanity, devil worship and all. When you combine a really sick genius and a bored rich kid, you’ve got problems. This was so sick I turned it off, but I was triggered anyway. In the middle of the night, I was driving and I leave my car in the middle of the road, pick myself up and wonder about all the damage I’ve just done. Then, the very next morning, I turn the corner and there is a light I never make with people turning left onto a major street. In that moment I saw the as green, my way when it really wasn’t because there were people stopped at the light. I got mad and I was going for them. I stopped myself moments later because I came to my senses due to a car stopped at the light, but I was triggered, never the less. Also, on the night of the first dream, where I was calmly driving, I took a shower and my nose shot blue flame as it does sometimes in the night when I blow it. It did it twice. I remember saying to myself “To whom am I listening?” I am almost sure I already have an implant. That started me thinking seriously about getting to a deprogrammer.
About a year ago, on 9-18-01, a day after my wife’s birthday. I wrecked my doing the same exact thing. I would swear to you that the light was green my way, but there was something odd about the way I actually drove for the other car when I had plenty of time to stop even after I was in the act of stopping. My arms were locked rigid on the steering wheel and I went through the windshield and had no head injury at all except some glass in my scalp. Everyone was amazed that I was okay, especially the driver I hit. He was a thug in & out of jail who claimed whiplash and sued my insurance company for $1 million. I don’t know if he won, but he was all right at the crash scene. Maybe I was triggering him to do something else, I don’t know. I remember thinking as I was diving for the other car, how rarely the light is green my way. I still dove for it. Not funny.
On , or around 11-1-01, I was riding down the same street and at a different light, I saw a car do the same thing to me, going the other way. I looked at the light and it still green going my way. I pulled over to the side quickly and I saw the light her way was green also. People were actually going through the light both conflicting ways at the same time. I called my insurance agent who listened and then told me of alight in his area that does the same thing. I stayed at the light and it only did it one time.
I am no maniac and I have been observing my reactions to certain events. Evidently, my mind had been filled with rage at missing that light all the time and so I quietly flipped, just because I miss the light(s) all the time. Merely because I saw a movie that said it was all right to kill someone, that equated me driving a car into another one the next morning.
It made me wonder how easily we all are triggered daily?
Needless to say I vary my travel plans now.
Now, I am thinking about taking a trip back east to get started with deprogramming.
Unless I wasn’t a trained observer, I might never have caught this going on.
About a year ago, on 9-18-01, a day after my wife’s birthday. I wrecked my doing the same exact thing. I would swear to you that the light was green my way, but there was something odd about the way I actually drove for the other car when I had plenty of time to stop even after I was in the act of stopping. My arms were locked rigid on the steering wheel and I went through the windshield and had no head injury at all except some glass in my scalp. Everyone was amazed that I was okay, especially the driver I hit. He was a thug in & out of jail who claimed whiplash and sued my insurance company for $1 million. I don’t know if he won, but he was all right at the crash scene. Maybe I was triggering him to do something else, I don’t know. I remember thinking as I was diving for the other car, how rarely the light is green my way. I still dove for it. Not funny.
On , or around 11-1-01, I was riding down the same street and at a different light, I saw a car do the same thing to me, going the other way. I looked at the light and it still green going my way. I pulled over to the side quickly and I saw the light her way was green also. People were actually going through the light both conflicting ways at the same time. I called my insurance agent who listened and then told me of alight in his area that does the same thing. I stayed at the light and it only did it one time.
I am no maniac and I have been observing my reactions to certain events. Evidently, my mind had been filled with rage at missing that light all the time and so I quietly flipped, just because I miss the light(s) all the time. Merely because I saw a movie that said it was all right to kill someone, that equated me driving a car into another one the next morning.
It made me wonder how easily we all are triggered daily?
Needless to say I vary my travel plans now.
Now, I am thinking about taking a trip back east to get started with deprogramming.
Unless I wasn’t a trained observer, I might never have caught this going on.
posted by Mike Liesveld @ 7:49 PM
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