Epilogue

I want to talk about the possibility that this world is not what it seems to be at all. I am not simply talking about 3-D or any dimension at all, merely about the possibility of a great plan to teach souls to grow into gods. There is an energy matrix that supposedly holds this world and everything in 3-D together. When we access the field or flow state we tap into that energy field and make manifesting possible. This is what we are potentially capable of. All it takes is the wisdom of silence, clarity and focus on our intent. We cannot care about what the outcome will be or when it will take shape for time and space have no meaning in field. How did we come to be where we are in this 3-D experience we call life? We came to be the way we are by just stumbling along and growing up with the crowd. We are starting to realize now that we can do incredible things beyond imagination a few years ago, if we separate ourselves from the crowd and its opinions. We are part of the crowd and if we stay within the crowd, we will only grow as fast as the crowd. The crowd's evolution is very slow taking millennia to inch forward due to the sheer inertia. However, if take our attention away from the mundane activity of just getting by and reach for a little more, we find a great system or plan that we are connected to. We came to 3-D with a purpose of growing in some way that only 3-D can teach. If we grow now, in this moment, then we don't have to repeat this process until millennia go by while the rest of the crowd catches up. The 3-D universe seems to me to a testing ground for growth. There are several levels on which you can grow. One is physically while another is mentally, but these are both limited in scope and can get you only so far. Only you can make the transition from 3-D to the field. Why should you do it? That is a fair question and one that I will answer right now. If you don't make the transition sooner or later you will encounter a deep boredom or depression which will not be lifted until you leap. It is not a leap of faith rather a leap of questioning why we are here. To be or not to be, that is the question that will eventually come to your consciousness. For some of us, this question comes early in life and for others , not at all. Most encounter it only as they lay dying wondering about what their life has meant. As my purpose is unfolding, I find myself needing to write about what I have glimpsed in this life so far as to the nature of things in general. Always when I write things come clear as they are now. Most of this writing I am doing now is automatic, as it just flows out of me in a stream of consciousness. I find that I am writing to an audience who will probably never read this. Maybe this will get published someday, maybe not. Possibly this is just my way of clearing out my ego of thoughts that come directly from my spirit. All I know is that I feel so alive when I'm doing this that it has to be right. Maybe this is my flow state for now and I have the talent for writing now. Later, i know it will change and I will achieve flow in many new and different ways. I suppose that is the fun of it all, telling my story even if only I am listening. I can only hope I pay attention to the words I am putting down on paper, for I am feeling great about the experience of doing this in this moment. The meaning of my life is coming clearer day by day. I tend to do a lot of meditating these days. Along with the writing, I have become a more silent person. I listen to music a lot now and it soothes me. Music has always been a large part of my life. The lessons I have learned so far are amazing and not what I had intended just a few years ago. I suppose retirement gives one the time to reflect on their situation in 3-D. I retired early in life to absorb myself in whatever came around for me to do. It has been good for me to have a limited amount of funds because I never had that lesson before in life. I still have not mastered that area so I am doomed to keep falling in the same holes until I actually wake up to the financial flow of life. I am a very contemplative person and don't move much without considering what the move does for me. On the other hand, I move quite easily when the right condition comes along. My wife does not understand what I'm doing at all and is very frustrated with me right now. This will pass as everything does and I hope she will notice a greater dimension of me coming out of the current ashes of my past life. She can be very literal and pragmatic and she does not have patience with any dallying around. The direction of my life in 3-D has been through the four stages of normal growth. First, I was an inquisitive child, full of wonder, then I bought into other people's opinions and became one of the crowd in my own limited way. Then I rebelled and went off the deep end with anger at everything that appeared to be wrong with the world from my viewpoint, still deep in the rut of the mundane. Then I started to lose my anger as what was the point, if no one was paying any attention to me raging on like a lunatic all the time. I started to wake up very slowly from the dream of living in a seeing, touching, hearing world only to a new possibility of more than I had before. This was long after I went crazy for no apparent reason except boredom. Boredom taught me several things of which I am only figuring out. Boredom can in the service doing a menial task and then repeating it for no other reason than to keep busy. I know why human beings are kept busy. It is because if we're not kept busy we might begin to figure some things out on our own and that would not be nice for the so-called leaders to deal with. Their gig would be up and they would have to give up the charade that they have been playing with us. In a sense, boredom woke me up and made me get on with life. I had a rude awakening which I ignored completely and dove into my work. It only took about 10 years of this before I was kicked in the shins again by boredom. This time I married my way out of it. Wives hate inactivity in their husbands and find all sorts of odd tasks for them to do. No, I am thinking my way out of it through writing about my life and how I should apply the knowledge I've gained to the current position I find myself in. I have been stuck for a long time now, 20 yrs or so, in my own self contained box. I painted myself in this hole with my view of reality, never once realizing that I could just change. I can climb out of the hole anytime but it is so comfortable and pleasurable that I don't. I set up the running out of money thing to get me to move and I will have to move very soon now, as the money is running out fast. It ‘s funny how one can sabotage oneself into moving one way or another. I did this as sure as I am standing here in 3-D at this time. My spirit has let me do this in order for me to learn and I am dense.