In Search Of Me

While I have been searching for answers as to what I am supposed to be doing here on Earth, I run into other more interesting answers that beg the question. Am I climbing up the wrong ladder? Someone or something has been specifically programming me for their purposes and using my dreams as a vehicle for doing it. I think of myself as an observer, and now I find out that I have been used as an observer all along by this someone who is programming me. A couple of nights ago, I saw my holographic image put on a cylinder with an image of me facing outward at each 90 degree position. I was allowed to see this for some reason. There were not only 4 of me, but at least 16 of me all facing outward. My programmer has either piggybacked on my purpose for being here, or my purpose is just another false alter. I prefer to believe it is the first choice, naturally. I will consult my oversoul to find out the truth through toning. Toning seems to start my strings vibrating their own tune, which is my message to the universe. If I am in the flow, then my strings gather support from the outer side of me. When I am in the flow, my strings resonate with just the right pitch, as to be heard by everyone that matches that frequency at that point in time. The result of all this is, at minimum, the answer to my question, and more likely the manifestation of what I am seeking at that pint in time. Unfortunately, I am not always ready to see my light when it appears and so the universe actually hits me physically with something to get my attention. If I still don’t pay any attention, I get beat up physically or mentally, until I make the connection. Sometimes, the process can take lifetimes. It all depends on a couple of things. One is how dense I am at the time. The other is how ready I am to receive the teaching.