Coming Alive

How do you know when you are going right? It's when you feel good more of the time than not. Since I retired, I have had some time to reflect on the meaning of life and my role in this grand scheme. It comes down to being kind not right all the time and keeping your mouth shut so you can listen and observe what is going on around you. I have begun a real task lately of just not saying anything when given the chance. It's hard to not open your mouth even if all you were going to do was put your foot in it. I was so doggoned arrogant that I just couldn't help myself. I've noted that people are more kind to me since I started this effort of sitting on my ego. Very often, things come in from out of the blue to help me along my path. Currently, this is my path and I am writing each day. Not so much as a journal of the day's events, but I write about ideas that come into my head that often have nothing to do with what I'm currently involved in. I often write about what I dreamed the night before. I now can remember most of my dreams and that is nice because there is another world at night to live in. It is a bendable 3-D world where the laws of gravity and physics don't apply in the same context as they do when I'm conscious. Most of the time, I fly through my dreams sometimes going back to my previous self to tell me how to do things right. I know this is hogwash because if I would have done things differently then I would have other things to redo as hindsight is much better than foresight. In many ways, I am still stuck in my ways carrying around a large bag of rocks on my back for no reason, but I'm beginning to wake up and see the world differently. I can see the grand scheme sometimes with ease and other times, it passes me by without a glimpse. I am stopping more now to enjoy the moments as they go by. I notice things that I never looked at before, even though I waltzed right by them several times. The 3-D world is a wonderful place with endless diversity for us to share. I paint a good picture each morning as I wake up. My perception is that reality is what you make it to be. If you make it the same way every morning, then you will be doomed to relive 1 year, 70-80 times over and over again. Then, just for your lack of vision you may get to come back to 3-D again and redo the same things again until you wake up. Maybe that is what I'm trying to say. I'm waking up to my purpose for being here and that is just in time. I chop wood and carry water with a better attitude now. People all around me are nicer now that I don't judge them as quickly or harshly as I once did.You were born into the crowd to be comforted for a while, and then grow beyond the need for outside stroking. The crowd only strokes what is similar to itself. They can hold you back especially if you know why you're here. Doubt is a large part of their hold on you. If they can create doubt within you then they have won and you've accepted their rules as gospel. Only accept rules that you can validate as ones that do not enslave mankind. Learning from others does not mean you have to be like them or even like them for that matter. Know that you are connected to it all and can perceive a great part for yourself in this life, even if no one else thinks so. This life has many sides to it and usually winds up being a neutral experience. For every joy there is suffering, ups require downs, in and out, back and forth, give and receive, life and death, good and bad. Now, I've possibly stepped on someone's toes, but good and bad are relative terms. Good is only good according to someone's standards. All life is a trade off and we are constantly choosing our path so get quiet and live in the moment. If you really focus on what you're doing in this moment, release it for the next, and so on, you'll find a rich life full of genuine experiences that you'll cherish. Sitting on the edge of life complaining about how you never get a break will get you more of the same. Jump in, get your feet wet, remember it act then correct, not correct then act. If you create your perfect world and do not ever live in it, won't that be a sorrowful event. Take a moment or a few to enjoy the fruits of your labors for only you can enjoy the result as you made it for you. Remember too, that almost all of life is a journey because if you stop at the goal for long than you miss the point. Enjoy the whole experience of life without hurting anyone else and you've got the best of it all. You are then doing what you want to do and growing wiser because of it. Wisdom is many things one of which is knowing hat you are of value. More than that, we all are of value. Just because you may not see that someone in the gutter is of value may mean that you have not learned that lesson yet so you may be in the gutter sometime in the future just to prove the point. Walk a mile in someone else's shoes if you have an ego problem. Realize that opinions are useless unless they are asked for. Whenever you judge, ask yourself, could I be spending my time better, because unless you haven't noticed, the other person doesn't care or shouldn't if he or she is put together at all well. One of the goals of this life has to be, be independent of the good opinion of other people, ie.. leave the tribe. My home, street, city, state, nation, earth, football team, etc.. Is all just geography to keep your ego happy. Is this our earth, who was here first, the Draco or us. This is really a stupid question if I've ever heard one. We are not humans, but spirits free of all entanglements. We create our world in our image daily each time we wake up and if we don't like it, we can make different choices and change our perception and therefore our perspective on life. What bothers us today, is yesterday's fodder or dust. You only have a responsibility for what you take on in this life. If you want a simple life, be a hermit or monk as your soul's purpose will guide you. Don't expect everyone to be happy doing as you do because they do not have your soul's purpose for being here. All kinds of people think that anyone piloting a plane that dies is a tragedy. Who are you to hold judgement over their soul and its purpose. That may be the lesson they needed to learn at this point in time. Life is a series of triumphs and tragedies, but don't dwell on any one too long because you'll miss the point. Capture your life with the gusto it deserves. Sometimes you watch and wait, other times you act, but there is always the souls there observing how wise you have become so you may walk down a different street sometimes rather than falling in those same old holes all the time. Too much of correcting or acting is usually a bad thing. You have to move to live and you have to correct your direction sometimes. In a perfect world or dimension, our soul and ego are one in the same. Who came first, the chicken or the egg, another stupid question. Are we having fun yet, now that's a decent question to ask. If we are on purpose, ie.. doing what our soul had in mind, then it is probably got some enjoyment in it for us. That's the ticket, focusing on what you want, doing no harm in the process, getting in the flow of life. You say, you don't know what your purpose is, well I can bet that it has something to do with what you like doing. Now, if you like killing people then you have a problem. this means you like killing what you are connected to. If you are connected to that which you kill, then you are dying a little each time you kill someone and you won't live very long. A thing is true to itself. As Wayne Dyer would say, no tree is so foolish as if one branch hates another. If you hate, it is you that has the problem, and you will have it until you let go of the hate, or you may develop cancer and die of the hate. We come here whole, not broken, while here we learn some things consciously incorrect things and we pay the price. Get quiet if you're having problems, listen to the earth or your heartbeat and stop and wonder at the marvel of this plan and how it works. Enjoy!The world is neutral in this 3-D experience. My soul is bathed in light and immortal. This vessel we call a body is not immortal, but this is just the cover over us. The god force is just there observing what I do with compassion and indifference because the god force is everywhere. The energy of life runs through the 3-D universe as well as other dimensions. When other forces encounter the 3-D earth, it stands out as a globe of energy that is vibrant and whole, not fragmented and separated like we see it. Why do we see it in a bad light? Possibly our egos don't feel complete all the time. We need to get quiet and discover the wonder of our earth and everyone on it. We are connected to something quite light and free. How could it be negative? Maybe what we think is negative is just our reaction to not getting what we want all the time. Our ego's cry for more is quite a power in 3-D. We define who we are by our differences, but we strive to conform, to belong, to be accepted. It ‘s a fine edged sword, this life. We need to be complete to come home and how do we do this with something we cannot understand. I have to accept the fact that there are atoms in 3-D because I read it somewhere. Why is the god force such a stretch? I have a lot of intuition and I use it all the time. Not enough, though, for I am not there yet. I am gaining on it, observing myself doing this ridiculous dance called life. Wayne Dyer says to do an exercise that stretches your ego out a lot. He takes you out of your body and lets you see what the earth is like without you. He lets you see the fireball of action without you, the star in the picture. It's a humbling experience, but a great one to see the earth as one piece of the 3-D universe and to know that all your ego's troubles are bound up in that one small, precious place. It makes you appreciate the earth and want to clean it up. It makes me want to sweep my own doorway before I judge how badly others have done cleaning up their lives. I am living now, trying to notice as many moments as possible. Not holding on too tight so I can enjoy as many as possible. I was trying to follow my bliss without knowing what it truly was, before. Now I know what it is and I am once again flowing toward the light. Now, if I knew that the Draco were messing with my spiritual energy, then I would blast them out of existence, but that is hard to nail down as of now. I have also been carrying around baggage about how I treated Joe Serafini and Dennis Newton, as well as all the members of my family. I just found out why and it is simple. I tried to raise them up into my rare air and they lost touch with their energy as I gave them a new direction that they did not ask for. Shame on me, but now get on with my life and stop blaming myself for something stupidly implemented. I shifted their evolution closer to mine and they did not want to be near me. They rebelled and I was left wondering what happened. In reality, I helped them because I needed to and not because they needed it. They did not ask ,but they got it anyway. Who am I to cry foul when they woke up in my evolution not theirs. I will not knowingly grab someone again and drag them out of their supposedly happy situation. It was my ego trip, not theirs. I am through with this baggage. I am releasing it now.