Play With Them

As I gain confidence in being able to sell people on an idea, a strange sensation is coming along with it. One of exhilaration and self-esteem that I have not experienced before. I am calm in the face of the storm that is humanity around me. I am attracting people that can sell. I am going to come through this all right. All I ever had to do was to exclude all other thoughts of hope and get down to the business of making the funds I desire to make my life flow like it should. I always knew I could do it and I am making it happen by myself. Of course, I have had good training, but I have a determination I didn’t before, and it’s that determination that is propelling me upward. The people I sell this idea to will be trained and coached by me and others to become great salespeople too. If I can do it, anyone can do it. It took awhile, nut I’m coming into my own right. I will keep DJ at bay long enough to sell myself out of the pit I drove into at full speed. I drove into it knowingly, but not with enough vision to get out. I will make up the money I lost and pay back the people I love the most. AS I pay them back, they may or may not see that I am a viable force to be reckoned with. I can exist on my own without any condescending help from my brother or my mother. I needed their help to push me into a spot where I did not want to be. I came into this life on my own, I will make my own way in spite of my family and wife who continue to brand me in their own ways. I do not blame them for what they did or are doing. It was my fault that I got to this place in my life and mine alone. I accepted their attitudes and opinions as my own. No More! I have always been able to solve problems that no one else could, but I had this block against my own mind pattern as a salesman capable of making money at will. I am a salesman and proud of it. My family does not believe it yet, and maybe they never will, but my resolve is sure, my mind is made up, I am going to sell my way out of debt and never be in this condition again. I lead by example and example only. If father and mother die before they see that, that is their problem, not mine. I must be allowed to grow into my destiny. I will now help people in the best way, by giving them the gift of their own self-esteem. They, too, can rise from the ashes of this country. We all have our methods and skills we use to go through life and right now this is mine to use until I grow into something else. I am becoming a driven person in my own way. I am driven to make sense of it all and find my own way through it. If I have to leave people in my wake, so be it. On e of these days real soon, I am going to tell father and mother and Joe something that may give them pause to reflect. I am proud of them for letting me grow through the messes of life. They have always been there for me, and I think they should know that I think they are all right. I t wouldn’t mean anything to her right now, I am proud of Aurita too, for telling me what she thought, regardless of the consequences, she told me the truth. I regard her highly for that. Both my brothers are going through life without a safety line or any stability at all. They are in there, slugging it out, everyday, just barely getting by. If I can show them a better way, maybe they will eventually see what I have been trying to do my whole life. I am a beacon shining brightly, and I will never burn out, even though I may die in the process. I was here, making my way, finding my portion of the light of the universe. I can have it all . as I do already. I am just now realizing that fully, why I was so stubborn is beyond me, but as I said before, I am at this point now and growing as I speak. I will have no more victim mentality. I am to play with life and have a good time as I grow ; learn; teach , communicate, and recruit others to play with life also. I am my mind pattern and I can change rapidly into what ever I project into the world. If the world likes what they see, they will come along for the ride. It’s my job while here to lead by example so they can possibly remove their blinders a little and flow with me through this wonderful energy field called life. As long as I am in tune with my oversoul, my mission on earth is secure. I grow by teaching and learning from others around me that I am connected to it all. I am both alone and connected as long as I support that view. The connectedness brings me joy and sorrow. If I stay in either one for too long, I have missed the point of coming into 3-D altogether. The whole point is to grow through the experiences that I set up for myself. The point being that I alone am responsible for the conditions and reality I find myself in. if I don’t like it, I may change my reality anytime I feel like it. I have but to think and act differently and my perception and perspective will change. I am the captain of my crew. And they have only followed my instructions so far, and they may have thought I was crazy at times, but they followed my lead anyway. We can follow someone else’s path, or we can create our own reality. I am my own creator as long I am consciously connected to the universal field of energy that surrounds and binds us all together, Watch me fly.