Brain Dead Atheists/ Pessimists

As we grow, things happen that we cannot explain by old fashioned rational means. In other words, we cannot easily rationalize it away. In our teens, we love to use logic to tear things down and prove our new found rational superiority. Because of this aspect of our makeup, most genius-like ideas happen early in life before we have learned too much about what is not possible. This kind of rationality is nice for a naive teenager, and many of us never outgrow this phase and become really obnoxious bores, impressed only with our left-brain qualities. The movie, Contact, has a great way of humbling this kind of person often. At the end of the movie, Jodie Foster was at a loss for words when presented with the same argument she herself had presented earlier in the movie. One time early in the movie, Matthew McConaughty has an argument with Jodie Foster where he asks her to prove that she loved her father. It sounds absurd, but the answer is obvious, just as existence exists generally for everyone on earth, the answer is no proof is required. All you had to do is look at her in the movie when her father was around and you knew she loved him. How do even try to prove a feeling exists? The idea is so absurd. It is one of the givens in life. As a person in my twenties, I was still a confirmed atheist and a flat earth rationalist so I wrote an absurd poem called pity where I tried to prove that love was rational. I failed miserably in my effort, but I was too proud to admit that I lost the bet. Someone said he didn't know enough to be an atheist or a pessimist. It took me 53 years to recognize the absurdity of my previous superior attitude to virtually everyone around me. Many people would still qualify me as an atheist because I don't believe that god is a entity and I will not ever set foot in a church. Churches are for those who need them to find sanity and peace in this 3-D life. I have always been at peace, even when I was Consciously Incompetent. I used to believe only what I could see, hear, or prove through some kind of weird logic. Now, I go through life wide open, taking nothing for granted. I am unusually grateful for finally waking up to some degree. This was brought to my attention by Deepak Chopra recently when he confirmed the neutrinos had been found to a wave sometimes and a particle in other circumstances. It's all one form of energy or another, what is the big deal. It all comes down to a photon which is supposed to be the smallest particle of light. Whether it is the neutrino or the photon, the object is always the same, trying to explain life in logical terms. If we add the mass of probable amount of neutrinos in the universe we come to a more representative number for the dark matter in space. If we can somehow come up with an accurate number of the mass of the universe, then we can somehow explain the reason for the big bang and therefore logically agree about life. The unified field theory is another absurdity that I follow with a lot of interest. When we can explain the unified field theory to a child and he understands, then we'll have something. What if he or she gets bored and decides to do something else. It's like the project that was supposed to contain life in a biosphere for a couple of years, it didn't last 2 months, little did we know that one of the key ingredients was missing, the midichlorians. This little gem of a bacteria or virus is so elusive that it makes the neutrino look obvious. Sometimes when the wind, temperature, and water conditions are just right, this little item can be found in the middle of the Pacific Ocean. Now we feel better. Scientists can sleep because now they know what stopped their little god-like experiment. How absurd it all is! Why can't we accept the mystery of it all and get on with it. Merely because we have a controlling type ego base, does not mean that we always get our way. If someone on earth knew it all, why stay, the mystery is gone. Time to check out. Like the machine in Star Trek I who knew it all, but still wanted more. Along came a right-brained person to solve its problem, check out time, end of movie. Anytime you've figured life out you have a problem, what do you do for your next hat trick. How do you live through the next moment without a challenge to keep your interest peaked? Is a moment time bound or could a moment be an eternity when taken from another point of view. What if you whole life had but one purpose, to be President of the USA, and for the purposes of this argument, say you made it. What do you do afterward? It is said a mind raised to certain level has a real problem going back to what ever it was doing before. It is all in the attitude that is taken about what one is doing.What I have been trying to point out is that life is a mystery for a reason. It like an infinite loop of paradoxes. Be grateful for the mystery and magic of it all because it keeps us on our toes, always growing , learning, serving, and loving. To evolve while on earth and still be in paradise, marveling at how it all works so effortlessly. It is a perfect system and we are part of it, evolving at a slightly different rate than everyone else, perhaps, but still in awe of how great it all is and how great we make it by consenting to it with our perception and through our perspective. We are the creators of what we see and do, just as any god is. Our intent shapes our world, whether hidden or not. I Take issue with the saying, "Our thoughts/ beliefs shape our world. I think it should go a couple of steps beyond that. A thought without an intent is just an idle whim. A real desire can take form if you put yourself behind it. The mystery is what I missed as an atheist/ pessimist because I couldn't see it or prove it. I never really got it like I do now. Living life in the moment was for fools. Now, I long to live in the moment, appreciating what wonder , majesty, and beauty is in that one moment of life. Sometimes I do and those moments are the most precious ones I cherish because I can take experiences with me. I've learned to love the wonder of it all, and be a part of the manifestation of 3-D. Of course I am a god in embryo. Part of me is waiting to be born and another part is already flying. This is a great way in which to go through life. In awe of how great I can be when I am just at peace with life, accepting what I get and leaving what I don't , with no regrets.